"Steep your life in God-reality, God-initiative, God-provisions.
Don't worry about missing out.
You'll find all your everyday human concerns will be met."
Matt. 6:33 MSG
I was raised "christian", around other "christians" and grew up in church. Although, looking back it wasn't until I truly grasped this verse that I began to truly live my life for Christ.
Story began when I was 19 yrs old, ya know the crazy stage where you're not quite sure what to do with your life. Im not a kid, and not ready to be old. I fell somewhere in the middle. And I dont know if this is normal for some people but I've always wanted to do things as fast and as soon as I could in life. I took drivers ed a week too early, so I had to -wait- patientlyfor my permit. I took my road test before I was 16, so I could walk in SOS on my birthday to obtain that license. I managed beauty school and high school at the same time, so that I could graduate early. By the time I was 18, I had my high school diploma and my license to do hair. I was proud of myself and where God had taken me, yeah. At the same time, believe it or not, I was quite upset with myself and God that I was not with the person I was supposed to marry. Like really God, my mom was married at 19 about to have her first kid, I need to be doing something with my life! It might sound crazy I know. But at 19, I thought getting married should have already been in the works. Anyway...I've had one semi-serious boyfriend in my life but I hung around a lot of guys, I figured someone was better than no one. Plus hey if they liked me it was fun to hang out. I knew I did not want to date them and it was wrong. Everyone could see it, me, my friends, family, and most importantly God.
Then I went to IHOPE (international house of prayer) @ 10mile n Frazho. I know y'all are thinking pancakes sound good right now, me too but lets stay on task. So I couldn't see truth from my friends and family about how I was living my life in sin, God decided used some older guy (think he might have ran the meetings) I have never met him in my life to come up & pray with me tell me these words...
"But put/seek God's kingdom first. Do what he wants you to do. Then all of those things (he inserted)- all the relationships and stuff that you crave- will also be given to you."
I was blown away, like really God I am that ignorant that you tried to use my family and friends and when that didn't work you cared enough about me to send some random guys to speak your truth and know what was going on in my life. It was stinkin' amazing! Plus, Everyone I went with was spoken to by God that night.
So then I had a decision, and many decisions after that. I chose to seek God with all my heart, drop everything that hinder me from getting to know and fall in love with my wonderful creator. Literally I came to a point, I remember sitting in my car thinking, God if I never get married, I will be happy as long as I know I'm doing what you for me.
I was in this life, and in it for Him. Honestly, soon after that...I became friends with my future perfect husband. It even took me a little to be fully convinced by God that this was what he wanted for me because I just told him I was okay if I never married, secretly hoping he had a back up plan. But thank God it didn't take me to long to see Raul was the one for me because I had a schedule of babies to have & keep before I'm 30.
